Wednesday, October 12th, I had weight loss surgery.
That’s kind of a big statement. Maybe it seems out of the blue if you aren’t friends with me on Facebook and weren’t forewarned. You might have a few questions. Let’s see if I can answer some of them.
Why weight loss surgery?
Well… Because. I know that isn’t the best answer.
You know, if you’ve read my blog for any length of time, that I have struggled with losing weight. I’ve tried to lose weight more times than I can remember, starting in my mid-twenties. I’ve done low fat, low carb, Atkins, plans prescribed by my doctor, Medifast, SlimFast, Nutrisystems, Weight Watchers, Deal-a-Meal… All of these at least twice and several of them many, many more times than that and many other plans that I can’t even remember. On average, I’ve probably dieted once a year for the last 20 years. Nothing ever stuck.
I started off great, lost a little (the most I’ve ever lost on any plan was 35 pounds), then gained it all back, and it brought friends. (Uninvited guests are totally the worst.) Then I tried again. And I failed again. Tried again. Failed Again.
I’m tired of being a failure. I want to lose weight. To do that, I knew that I needed to do something drastic and permanent.
Okay, I hear you, but what makes you think this will work?
That is an excellent question, and harder to answer because it gives voice to that nasty little person in the back of mind who tells me that I will never be successful. (Thanks for that. She loves attention. Please don’t give her anymore. It makes it easier to keep her quiet).
First, I’ve seen the results of other people who have been successful after having weight loss surgery. They were right where I was. Failure after failure, nothing ever worked, but this did. I know that if it worked for them, then I can make it work for me too.
Second, there are some pretty nasty results if you don’t follow the prescribed plan after surgery. Like losing your hair and vomiting when you overeat. I don’t know about you, but those are two things I have no interest in happening. I MUST follow the rules.
Third, I believe that it will. I’m not sure I’ve ever been able to say that about anything else I’ve tried. I believe. I have faith in this and it is giving me faith in myself.
So why weight loss surgery NOW?
I know this probably seems sudden to a lot of people. For me, it isn’t. I’ve actually been thinking about having weight loss surgery for five or six years. I know that advancements have been made with the types of surgery. More and more people I know are having it done and are having huge successes with it.
What nudged me to go for it now? For the last year or two, I’ve dealt with a lot of pain. I had tendonitis in my foot that took over a year to correct. My back and hips have given me tons of problems. Months of visiting the chiropractor offered temporary relief, but no fix. My knees are getting to the point that I was sure I would need a knee replacement within the next few years. All in all, I had a legitimate fear that I would be disabled by the time I was 50. I don’t want to be in a wheelchair.
I’m tired of not being able to walk or bike around my neighborhood with my kids. I’m tired of not being able to walk up a flight of stairs (forget more than one flight). I’m tired of that feeling of panic when I sit in an airplane seat. I’m tired of not being able to participate in activities because of my size or my health or pain. I’m tired of being afraid that I will drop dead from a heart attack or a stroke or that I’ll develop Type 2 Diabetes. I’m tired of being unable. I’m tired of being tired.
I don’t want to be tired anymore.
Those are the reasons I decided to have weight loss surgery.