Snapped

I was frustrated this morning. One couldn’t find his shoes, but wouldn’t really look for them, and the other one needed me to sign these papers “right now”, papers that were supposed to be given to me last week. I may have snapped. Then I may have worried about snapping the rest of the morning. I may still be worried about it right now.

So many things to do. Piles and stacks and lists fill my brain. I start note after note to get them out so that they will be somewhere. Somewhere besides inside my head. I mark things off and add things on.

Clean the refrigerator.
Deliver the Girl Scout cookies.
Load the dishwasher.
Defrost the chicken for dinner.
Scrub the bathrooms.
Fold the laundry.

It never ends. Everything just keeps coming, and there is more and more and more and… not enough. Not enough of me.

And so I get frustrated. And I snap. And I feel guilty. And I add to the list.

Apologize for snapping.

This post was written for Just Write, which is what I did. I sat down and I just wrote.

Comments

  1. I think so many of us know this. (Everyone? I guess there’s probably one or two people who NEVER lose their cool… )
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    • I’m glad to hear I’m not the only one because I can promise you that sometimes that is exactly how I feel. Alone.
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      • Just wrote a blog post entitled “A Meltdown for Mom”~ we need to admit, as moms, that this happens! It may not be pretty, it may take a while to recover from, it may leave chaos and hurt in it’s wake…but it happens~ and it’s okay…You are NOT alone! We just have to be willing, as mom, to share and come alongside each other as we do this mothering thing!

  2. I snap too. Early mornings and bedtimes are the worst. Breathe & move on with your day, and for goodness sake make a list in your phone lady. I always feel better when I can actually check things off a list; it makes me feel like I’ve accomplished something.
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  3. Oh friend, you are not the only one who snaps and feel overwhelmed and then feels guilty about snapping! Be encouraged today just in know that there are others who feel the same way each and every day!!!:)
    Jennifer-Mommy Life After Ph.D. recently posted…Clean and Dirty Secrets: Toddlers are GROSSMy Profile

  4. I snap, too. More than I care to admit. It’s rough being a parent sometimes.
    But I appreciate your honesty about it and I know you know you’re not the only one.
    ;-)

    xoxoxo
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  5. Your refrigerator is clean and your bathrooms scrubbed? Sorry I was distracted. I have the overwhelmed feeling right now and it’s only a matter of time…
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  6. I’m definitely someone who has lots of lists and snaps frequently. Ugh – sorry your list never ends, I can very much relate to that.

  7. Yep, we all snap sometimes. I have to put myself in time out fairly often!
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  8. The shoes! I had that moment this morning when I had his shoes all ready to go for school and he took them and “hid” them in the closet. I snapped.
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  9. Oh yeah, I know this so well. My youngest says “mommy is frusterated again.” Nice, he has his own word for my snappiness! I snapped at the pharmacist at Walgreen’s today & felt so bad I went back over to her and apologized and explained I was overwhelmed with the pink eye epidemic in our house at the moment not so much her. Ugh.
    I feel sort of bad, but I smiled when you put “apologize for snapping” on you list.
    Hang in there mama and know we are all making a very similar list!!!
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  10. I snap a lot more than I care to (or dare to) admit. We just pile on a lot of pressure on ourselves to check off that never ending to-do list. I feel for you!
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  11. You are not the only one. I speak quickly and then spend hours afterward wishing that I could take it back, soften the tone. It is so hard when things feel overwhelming.
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  12. Story of my life right now.
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  13. Sigh. YEP. More than I care to admit.
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  14. This is common around here. I snap because I don’t like being interrupted, which is how life works. In our family we interrupt each other and fall over each other and forget and remember too late and everyone’s needs must be met now. It’s overwhelming. Sometimes breathing is all you can do.
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