Those of you that have been reading for awhile know that I struggle with my weight. Over the years, diet has become a four letter word for me. Not only in the literal sense, but also the profane.
Losing weight has been an almost constant battle for me. I started gaining weight in high school, and then slowly over the years I have added on the pounds. I’ve followed more diet plans that I can remember. Today I’m vlogging about some of those plans and what I think about them (sorry for the choppiness, some serious editing went into this video).
See video here.
Here’s the thing… when I try and don’t succeed, I feel like a failure, which causes me to spiral even more out of control with my eating. I turn to food for a lot of different reason, because I’m hungry, because I’m frustrated, because I’m sad, because I’m stressed, because I’m happy, because I’m grieving, because I see it as a way to take care of my family, because I see it as a way to show and feel love, because on and on and on.
I know that is not a healthy way to look at food. I know that I need to do something. As I mentioned in the video, I’m currently in therapy to try to find out why I turn to food for all of those reasons. I’m getting there. Slowly.
I sense a collective eye roll whenever I talk about losing weight (even if it isn’t true), but here’s the other thing… I know, in my head, that I’m not a failure until I refuse to try again. As long as I keep trying, then I’m working towards achieving my weight loss goals. I only fail when I quit. I’ve never been much for quitting.
Jodi and I have decided to do a 90 day weight loss challenge. I’ve mentioned before that Jodi has lost over 125 pounds. She has managed to keep almost all of it off, but she did not get to her goal weight. We are going to be working together to support one another. We are going to try. Because sometimes that’s all you can do. Try.
PS You can read about mine and Jodi’s new weight loss journey at our new blog, Mom and Mommer.
I’m linking this vlog up with Mama Kat’s Vlogging Workshop. Be sure to stop by her place to check out all of the other great vlogs.