At the beginning of each year I like to choose a word or theme to focus on for the year. Throughout the year when things start to spin out of control and get lost in the busy, I like to stop and focus on that word. Sometimes I’ll find myself repeating it over and over, like a mantra.
This year my word of the year is control.
I know control is a slippery thing, kind of like balance. Balance is one of those things that everyone thinks is stagnant. That being in balance means everything is equal and unchanging, but that could not be farther from the truth.
Have you ever watched a tight rope walker? As they walk across a rope narrower than their feet they are constantly adjusting and making changes to ensure that they don’t fall. That’s balance. Constantly making adjustments to all of your areas of responsibility to try to prevent any of them from falling through the cracks. Control is like that too.
In the past I’ve always thought that I just need to “get control” of… everything, anything, but now I realize that isn’t true. It isn’t about everything being perfect at once, or even getting control of one thing and then marking that item off the list and forgetting about it forever. It is more about the appropriate attention focused on the right thing at the right time.
So why isn’t my word of the year balance? Because to me balance is about areas, whereas control is about things. Balance is about giving the right amount of attention to the right area at the right time, whether that be family, work, friends, or whatever. It is an outward focus, but control is an inward focus.
I feel like I’ve been floundering. I have all of these things that need to be managed, work, the kids’ schedules, my schedule, the house, this blog, writing… Just to name a few. Over this year I need to find a way to get some control over all of these different things.
I have all of these dreams and goals that I never seem to accomplish. Through therapy I’ve learned that I am the biggest obstacle to achieving those goals. This year I want to change that. This year I plan to take control.
What is your word of the year or theme for this year?
P.S. I’m so glad to be back from my break. I hope y’all had a great holiday. I can’t wait to catch up with everyone.