For the last couple of weeks I’ve had an overwhelming sense of anxiety lurking just below the surface of my skin.
It is like a burst of adrenaline just sitting there waiting for something to attack so that I can sprint.
I have no idea why this is. Nothing has happened. Everything in my life is the same as it has always been. I just feel like something is going to happen. I don’t know what and I don’t know when, just something… soon.
Lately my daydreams for my future have changed. I don’t know if it is just a normal “what if” this happened in my life type of daydream, or if it is a true wish that something would change.
Do I want to take the fork in the path that is just up ahead out of sight, or do I want to continue down the road that I’m on? Which is the right way to go?
And if this is not just a daydream. If this is a real thing that could be good for me and for David and for my children… can I do it? Can I have the courage to step on faith again? And what if I do, what if I take that step, and I fail? What then?
I am currently full of life questions and have no answers. An open-ended life full of possibility and change is not a comfort for a planner.
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That feeling of SOMETHING impending is so eerie! I hope it is something good, positive and beneficial for you!
It really is. I hope it is beneficial too.
Hugs, Mama! I know you’ll figure out in time what is best for you and your family. You’re probably finding some answers just by blogging about your feelings.
I wish it were that easy.
I think life is boring with risk.
I hope there is a fabulous opportunity ahead for you!
It is boring, but I just hate the unknown. I guess everyone does.
I think that we all go through periods like this.
I’ve been through this before. I never enjoy it.
Life is full of questions. You may find some of the answers. I am sure, there will be unanswered questions for sure..
But I don’t like unanswered questions. (Ready that in a super whiny voice.)
I think all people have experienced this kind of situation at a certain point in our life.. We just need to be strong and be happy always..
I can do the strong, but sometimes the happy eludes me.
I have these feelings/thoughts, too.
I hope this is a good one, girl!
(Love your freely written words. They’re lovely.)
I hope so too.
You are one of the strongest women I’ve even known. Whatever lies ahead, I’m sure you will handle it. It might be great and I will be among the first to line up and high-five you. It may be rough but I’ve never seen you crumble in the face of adversity and I’m sure you wouldn’t this time either.
You’re a wonderful example for your children about how to handle whatever life throws at you with a deep breath and a smile.
But I’m strong because I HAVE to be. Not because I want to be.